It's been a long time....

Months have past and I have not kept my resolution of updating my blog. My mood today is kind of bitter, or maybe should I say sad. As time goes by and as one gets older, it seems that to be happy is like a wishful thought.

To my friends, I may seems to be one who has no problems. Haha... In this universe, who doesn't have problems? It is just whether the person wants to show it or not. For me, if there is something upsetting me, I will not show it to the person who is not related to the matter. But if the something is related to the person then I will definitely show the person that I am unhappy abt something involving him/her.

I think that it is not necessary to make others unhappy if your unhappiness is not related to them.

The cause of my moodiness is due to...what else but studies.... Just got my result today for the deferred paper I took and I FAILED.....

Hope tomorrow will be a better day for me......

Temptation

Temptation is defined in wikipedia as an act that looks appealing to an individual. It is usually used to describe acts with negative connotations and as such, tends to lead a person to regret such actions, for various reasons: legal, social, psychological (including feeling guilt), health, economic, etc. Temptation also describes the coaxing or inducing a person into commiting such an act, by manipulation or otherwise of curiosity, desire or fear of loss.

"Temptation" is usually used in a loose sense to describe actions which indicate a lack of self control, such as procrastination or eating junk food.

In advertising, temptation is a theme common to many of the marketing and advertising techniques used to make products more attractive for purchase by consumers.

We as human beings often succumb to temptation not because we are ain't aware of it but rather we always tried to deny its presence. We have read in papers on couples caught cheating. Do you think that it just happen without any tell tale signs? I believe the party involve knows of the consequences involved. But why do they still succumb to temptation? I think it is because they tried to deny the fact that such things will happen to them. They failed to recognise that they are human after all with feelings. They refuse to avoid the situation thinking that they will never fall into it. Guess what? They are not only hurting themselves but the one who loved them.

We ain't God or Jesus who could withstand temptation. Don't allow yourself to be in that situation and end up hurting others. Also, some are tempted to lie but do you think lying will make the problem go away? Like the chinese saying: Paper will never be able to cover the fire. So do not think that we can get away without being detected. The lies will haunt you for life.

Friends

What are friends??

Some may think of friends as one who is there when u needed them. Forsake them when they are not needed.

This is the impression some people gave me in this competitive world. Before my education in university, I always thought that friends are the one who we can rely on when we needed someone to be there for us. But sad to say, it is not the case in this era that we are living in. People nowadays live to take advantage of one another. This is a sad case of society, we may now be asking ourselves if there is a person who we can really depend on in times of need?

There may be someone who we can turn in times of need but how many of these people is there? We will be considered lucky if there is only a couple people who we can call true friends.

I am writing this now is because as an oversea student in a foreign country, I have strong belief that we ought to help one another especially if we are from the same nation. Just like the days, when our ancestor who left their home to come to Singapore to build a family here and called it their home. I sincerely admire their compatriot spirit, they look after one another.

I am fearing for the future with this attitude of looking only after our own interest mindset. I am wondering will this people remember their roots? I will brand these people as selfish. Will they forsake their elderly parents if they find them a burden? It will be a sad state to see the older generation being abandon in some homes for the elderly because their loved ones think that they are a burden.

I hope those people who think that they don't have to rely on anyone or think that a friendship is a matter of you taking advantage of others. I would like to say this, no man is an island. We need one another to survive, there will time when we will be down. Life is not all smooth sailing.

What am I to do?

Why can't she understand me? I keep hearing myself asking. There is definitely no answer to it as I am speaking to myself.

I am trying my very best to accommodate her, she says she wanted to get married. I said, ok. Just that I told her I can't do it now. As I am in the midst of my studies, I had told her that after the completion of my studies we can get married a year after I started working but then she blew her top. I asked myself, am I asking too much for a postpone of marriage?
Why does she expect me to ask my parents for money to marry? Don't she realized the amount my parents had spent for me to get through university in a foreign land? I am sure the amount my parents spent on me to complete my degree is more than what her parents spent on her for a lifetime. That said so how am I going to ask my parents for more money for this marriage?

Why can't she just understand this?

How is money related to getting a degree?

In the past, there is pride associated with getting a degree. But as time changes so is the value of having a degree. Not only is the value of degree depreciating but the price of getting a degree is also higher i.e. the increase in tuition fees. Just like what we used to learn in mathematics, the value of degree is inversely proportional to the cost of getting a degree. The fact is though the tuition fees is repeatedly increasing, there is also an increase of people obtaining degree. Thus, when there is so many having obtained a degree which makes it so common that the value of a degree holder depreciate.

Now, I will get back to topic. So how is money associated with degree? In the past, getting into university is based solely on your academic results. It's not as if there is any difference now. So the difference here is that if you are rich, there is an extra avenue for you to consider which is either an offshore degree or going abroad. It doesn't really matter if you gotta study a longer period so long as you have the fiance to do so.

So that leave us to think, so what happen to the poor who couldn't afford that? It's really a shame that such things exist. But that is reality.

Therefore, I think in order to have a level playing field. I will suggest that the poor be able to get as much help as they can get to have a level playing field. In order for that to happen, the children must be able to have access to free tuition to have their foundation laid strong.

This is also because many of the well to do children have access to tuition which allows them to strengthen weaker subjects. I am not saying that those without tuition couldn't do it, of course there are some who are still able to achieve outstanding results without the need of tuition.

I believe in doing so, the children of the poor will then be able to gain into university via good academic results.

Hence, money is definitely related in how a degree is being obtained. Unless there is avenue for the children of the poor to have access in strengthening their weaker subjects for free. The children shouldn't be deprived of extra help just because their parents couldn't afford them.

The start of a New Year

Haven been posting much on here. The reason for that is I am never a good writer. Hence, I have made a resolution for this year - is to use this blog space to improve on my writing skill.

On the evening of 6th Jan 2006, I am here sitting in front of my computer typing away. My life seems to be a far distance from what I had planned. A once full of ambitions young guy, I am now a person who doesn't dare to think what tomorrow will be late-twenties guy. Once a guy who thought highly of himself to a guy with low confidence level. What had happened to me? I have been asking myself this question.

I am still not able to answer it, the only reason I can think of is my current stunt as an undergraduate student in Australia. The feeling I am getting may be due to the fact that most of my peers are in their late teens or early twenties. Yet, I am struggling to keep up with them in studies.

Maybe I shouldn't have continued with my studies after my stunts with the Army. Maybe I shouldn't be here in the first place.

But for the sake of my parents especially my dad, I will perceive on. Hopefully, by the end of the year I will be able to complete my studies and moved back to where I longed for - Singapore.

A very special day

After 7 yrs in a relationship, I am on the verge of being single again. After a discussion with my gf, I told her that maybe we gotta reconsider where our relationship is heading. How did we come to this stage? I am puzzled too. To think that just a few months ago, we were still discussing abt wedding.

For all I know is that for the past yr, she had not been the girl I once knew. Maybe it is because pple do change and I am not coming to terms with that. Or it may oso be that I can't trust her completely. There are of course incidents which make lost my trust in her.

To be very frank, when I was with her, I do not regard as just a gf it is more of...... a wife... Maybe that is why I am more cautious or am I just looking for xcuses now?

Seldom will I find myself in such a situation like this, where I am unable to come up with a solution. Usually there won't be a problem with me making up my mind, but now I am still unable to decide whether to be with her or to break up......

This seems like a really special day. Hope tomorrow I will be able to make a decision regarding that. Gd nite....

Unpredictable life....

Have u ever wonder, what is it like to lose someone dear?

Things in this world dun always go according to plan. So no one will know what will happen next. Have u ever thought, what will happen to the person next to you tomorrow? Life is so unpredictable.

Remember the time when I was young, there was this afternoon while I was having an afternoon nap. I dreamt of one person who is very important in my life, met with an accident. I woke up startled and I could feel my eyes welling up with tears. It got me thinking about that person. I am thinking what will happen if that very person really met with an accident and pass away. What will happen to me?

So since that day, I made a resolution to appreciate the people who is dear to me.

So I am advising whoever is reading this to treat the people around u well and not regret after the person who is dear to you pass away.

Decided to write this cause I read from the papers that someone was sent to jail for bashing up his mum. I think that person ought to know that it is that very person whom he bash up, gave him his life.

Life is unpredictable, dun live with regrets.

Playboy and Slut

Tis is my 1st post here. To think. it may also turn out to be a negative post. To start the ball rolling, wat is a male called if he had bed many women? The ans to many might be playboy. So wat is a female called if she bed many men? The ans to many might be slut.
Here comes the difference, do u pple think that a guy will actually mind being called a playboy? So wat if a gal is called a slut? I am sure she will feel insulted. The reason for a guy not minding being called a playboy is because to be a playboy u need quality/quantity - be it looks or money. So not all guys are qualify to be a playboy.
So for a gal, to be a slut is pretty easy. All she need is to be willing to spread her legs then she will be able to qualify to be a slut. Why is that so? That is because guys usually think with their small head rather than their head above. How many guys will reject a gal who is willing to spread her legs without any string attach?

So the msg to the gals out there, utimately u are the one to decide whether u want to be a slut or not? Cos the ball is in ur court.