Saturday, January 14, 2006

What am I to do?

Why can't she understand me? I keep hearing myself asking. There is definitely no answer to it as I am speaking to myself.

I am trying my very best to accommodate her, she says she wanted to get married. I said, ok. Just that I told her I can't do it now. As I am in the midst of my studies, I had told her that after the completion of my studies we can get married a year after I started working but then she blew her top. I asked myself, am I asking too much for a postpone of marriage?
Why does she expect me to ask my parents for money to marry? Don't she realized the amount my parents had spent for me to get through university in a foreign land? I am sure the amount my parents spent on me to complete my degree is more than what her parents spent on her for a lifetime. That said so how am I going to ask my parents for more money for this marriage?

Why can't she just understand this?

How is money related to getting a degree?

In the past, there is pride associated with getting a degree. But as time changes so is the value of having a degree. Not only is the value of degree depreciating but the price of getting a degree is also higher i.e. the increase in tuition fees. Just like what we used to learn in mathematics, the value of degree is inversely proportional to the cost of getting a degree. The fact is though the tuition fees is repeatedly increasing, there is also an increase of people obtaining degree. Thus, when there is so many having obtained a degree which makes it so common that the value of a degree holder depreciate.

Now, I will get back to topic. So how is money associated with degree? In the past, getting into university is based solely on your academic results. It's not as if there is any difference now. So the difference here is that if you are rich, there is an extra avenue for you to consider which is either an offshore degree or going abroad. It doesn't really matter if you gotta study a longer period so long as you have the fiance to do so.

So that leave us to think, so what happen to the poor who couldn't afford that? It's really a shame that such things exist. But that is reality.

Therefore, I think in order to have a level playing field. I will suggest that the poor be able to get as much help as they can get to have a level playing field. In order for that to happen, the children must be able to have access to free tuition to have their foundation laid strong.

This is also because many of the well to do children have access to tuition which allows them to strengthen weaker subjects. I am not saying that those without tuition couldn't do it, of course there are some who are still able to achieve outstanding results without the need of tuition.

I believe in doing so, the children of the poor will then be able to gain into university via good academic results.

Hence, money is definitely related in how a degree is being obtained. Unless there is avenue for the children of the poor to have access in strengthening their weaker subjects for free. The children shouldn't be deprived of extra help just because their parents couldn't afford them.

Friday, January 06, 2006

The start of a New Year

Haven been posting much on here. The reason for that is I am never a good writer. Hence, I have made a resolution for this year - is to use this blog space to improve on my writing skill.

On the evening of 6th Jan 2006, I am here sitting in front of my computer typing away. My life seems to be a far distance from what I had planned. A once full of ambitions young guy, I am now a person who doesn't dare to think what tomorrow will be late-twenties guy. Once a guy who thought highly of himself to a guy with low confidence level. What had happened to me? I have been asking myself this question.

I am still not able to answer it, the only reason I can think of is my current stunt as an undergraduate student in Australia. The feeling I am getting may be due to the fact that most of my peers are in their late teens or early twenties. Yet, I am struggling to keep up with them in studies.

Maybe I shouldn't have continued with my studies after my stunts with the Army. Maybe I shouldn't be here in the first place.

But for the sake of my parents especially my dad, I will perceive on. Hopefully, by the end of the year I will be able to complete my studies and moved back to where I longed for - Singapore.